About this space
About me :: strange Lovecraftian creature | miscreant | bad hijabi-ex-Muslim | seeker and lover of God | lover of the Torah and Judaism | deconstructing my religion | undecided | ailurophilic | penchant for punk, olives, chai | critical thinking is sexy | autodidact | asker of questions no one wants to ask | polyvagal nerd | Disimpacting My Brain | The Brain Savvy Hoomin | The Asshole Inside My Head | Former Economic Analyst + Researcher | Former Nurse | sweary mystic | intelligent weirdo | seeking solutions not wanking over problems
Humans fascinate me. Je ne sais rien, really. I learn to perfuse my intellect, acquiring knowledge to better understand the world feels like breathing for my mind. I love G-d, who is not a man. I’m a grandmother and that changes everything. My daughter is amazing. My granddaughter is exquisite. I have a pair of UIN shoes named Theo and Vincent. I think my cats are Jewish, they love the soothing demeanour of my favourite Rabbi and Jewish teacher, they come to listen to the lectures.
I write about extremes in a world where many struggle to find balance. I have an interest in denazification and the fall of the Third Reich, in particular the impact on women and children. I have an interest in cult leaders, the seduction of cult organisations, and the social contagion underlying radicalisation. I have an interest in dehumanisation and the role religion plays. I have an interest in the infiltration into Canadian society and politics of the United Front of the Chinese Communist Party.
I am an ex Catholic and an ex Muslim. I am uncertain and molting old spiritual skins. I reject tribal signalling masquerading as morality. I love Jewishness. I love Judaism. Religion intrigues and disappoints me. Religion has betrayed me in the past. Religion can provide the solution. It can also get us all blown up. We get to chose that fate.
Why Bad Hijabi?
It's a satirical name, mocking the ridiculous notion of bad hijab, an actual crime in countries ruled by deranged Islamic regimes, such as Iran. Women receive punishment for being bad hijabis. Mahsa Amini was killed for being a bad hijabi. Nothing happens to me if I am a bad hijabi, I can live my life quite unaware of how dangerous my irreverence and disobedience would be in another part of the world. Western hijab wearing women have a duty to their sisters living in Islamic regimes to use our freedom to promote religious tolerance and choice for women—hijab cannot be fard or this legitimises the brutality of the IRGC!
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